Saturday, October 8, 2011

Postponed Dreams

Dreams - after reading this post here and here, it hit a chord with me... here's my story

When I was I little girl, all I ever wanted to be was clothing designer, I used to draw outrageous dresses, with all the princess trimmings.... this dream never died, and those drawings morphed into sketches of more wearable outfits during my teen years. 

I even thrifted an old cardboard mannequin off a lovely elderly lady ( through 1ZB talk back garage sale ) with the help of my mum. I used this and the huge box of fabric she gave me and played around draping fabric and creating garments, that never got worn out the door. 
I still have one tucked away in one of my drawers.

All my ball gowns were designed and sewn by me, with the guidance of my mum. I would use multiple patterns and join different pieces together to get the end result I was looking for, though they were often purposely way too tight around the bust, to create a push up effect...lol.
You would think one my subjects at school was textiles.....well yes... but only for the first year, then those scary overlockers, and the boring curriculum put me off, so I threw myself into my other passion - Art.

I come from a family of very talented artists, one of my Uncles makes a living as a well accomplished artist in Aussie, and I absolutely love his paintings.  So once school was over I considered going to art school, but  at that time, modern art was all the rage, and I didn't fit in to the mold.



So I just plodded along, my part time school job, turned into my full time job..... and then at age 17 I met Mike, we bought a house, renovated..... I turned 21, then a week later found out we were expecting our first child, and thats when my passions, needs wants fell to the wayside...that last piece of toast would be always be given up to my pleading toddler (I'm sure this would be a familiar story to many).


So fast forward to life as I know it today......
 my dreams haven't changed much, they've just been altered to fit.

But what am I doing about it?  Not much. 
 Whats stopping me?
 In reality alot of excuses... kids, time, crafty distractions etc..
oh and there is the joint dream, to build our strawbale/cob house.....
so maybe I should just wait....... lock my brainstorming ideas away until my last child is at school? 
 Watch others succeed, while I wish I was them? 
 
These are the questions I wrestle with week upon week.....
so maybe I should just bite the bullet and take a step forward toward my dream?



3 comments:

Miriam said...Best Blogger Tips

I love this picture of your dreams. I hope you will make some baby steps for you, even while you pursure your family dream. Your talent and your commitment will grow with every step you take. I love this quote, 'Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined.'

Widge said...Best Blogger Tips

Love it. It's all about putting that time in now hey (obviously you don't have a lot spare while the kiddies are still so young) but you will do again (a wee bit anyway) beofre you know it. Go you I say!!!

Sarah of 'Catching the Magic' said...Best Blogger Tips

Great post and wow, you sound extremely talented and so passionate. Maybe it's time to put together a 5 to 10 year plan with goal setting to make your dreams work around family life and your other aspirations? x

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