Well the holidays are over, and so is all the travelling for atleast a few weeks phew!...... we have enjoyed time with family in Taupo, and had many visitors to entertain over the last couple of weeks....
a icy blast of snow has come and gone along with a good friend and her little boy.... we loved having them here.
To end our holiday we had a hospital appointment in Auckland for middle B, so we all piled into the car ( minus Mike ) and headed to Mums for a long weekend.
Friday morning an early morning call from the hospital informed me that our appointment was cancelled..... our surgeon was sick, bummer! All that way for a cancellation.
However it turned out this was just aswell, fate I think....
Little J had a doctors appointment in the afternoon to find answers about what had caused the mysterious lymph nodes on his neck... so with mum's suggestion I moved it forward.
So off I trotted with four kids in tow to the doctors....
we went through the normal checks.... temperature, ears and throat, and a check of the lungs and heart.....
Then the doctor took the stethoscope away from his ears looked up at me and asked " Did you know he has a heart murmur?"
Thats when the adrenalin kicked in.... another discovery, another to add to the list.... but as usual I accepted the news with many questions.... though much of that information was a blur later.
I walked out of the centre, as before...four kids in tow, but this time on auto pilot.... my mind racing with this unexpected news, so many things made more sense, I was now able to piece symptoms together.
Then I walked into mums work, and thats when I crumbled, like so many times before.... a familiar face, thats all I needed to let my tears fall and my body go limp, as the andrenalin high I was riding made me crash.....
My gorgeous, cheeky, huggy, loving boy has a heart murmur.
In awe of his new baby sister two years ago
Now I know many people who have heart murmurs can go through childhood to adulthood with no problems, and that some heart murmurs just turn out to be innocent. But our doctor tried to get him into a hospital heart clinic for that day, and then I recieved a text later that day ( who knew doctors text patients? ) from him to remind me to get a referral from our local GP to our local hospital for a thorough investigation, this all leads me to think its more than innocent..... so thats where I'm left now.... I'm back home, the holidays are over, the boys are back at school....
and its just me and lil miss....
While she's asleep, I'm alone with my thoughts comtemplating the appointments ahead.... hoping for the best outcome.